Happiness blah blah!

That’s the ideal end to all. To a situation, to an hour, to a day, to a month, a year and well a life. We live our lives to find that happiness. An infant cries out, for he has needs, and when those needs are fulfilled, he finds his happiness. Slowly, just about fulfilling of needs stops making us happy, for the understanding of needs changes. Then you have desires. And desires are indefinable and unfathomable.
If an unfathomable thing makes us happy, can we ever be happy?
I am not happy. I donot think I can ever be happy. Coz my desires are unfathomable. Coz everybody’s desires are unfathomable. So nobody is happy. When nobody is happy, how can we know what happiness is? Further, how do we know it exists? Is happiness just an illusion? Can anybody be happy? If can, please let me know how it looks like.
If happiness does not exist, then me sulking the day I got my job and crying my eyes out the next day, mean I am unhappy? If happiness does not exist, then how can unhappiness exist? Then me sulking and crying is not unhappiness? Then what is it? Am I just doomed to sulk and cry? Should I stop investigating further coz the thread of deductions just breaks there? Does the thread of deduction ever break? It can, or it can never? A theorem at the end of a deduction breaks the thread, trying to deduct the exact value of pi does not? So is that the sulking and crying is like a theorem at the end of a deduction or is the unending value of pi? Should I just consider the sulking and crying as the end to a series of happening? Or should I consider it a part of a series of unfortunate moments in my life? Will I call these unhappy moments or just moments? Does the word ‘moment’ encapsulate the unhappiness or happiness in the moment? Is the word moment positive or negative? It should be neither considering there is nothing called happiness, or thus unhappiness. At the end of the day, its all in the mind.

PS – Crying cleans up eyes, is a destresser and a great motivator.